A Follow Up On My Depression

5:00 AMDollie Simpson

Last year I posted about my experience with depression (you can read it here). I was so nervous putting myself out there, but in the end it was a cathartic experience. I was so overwhelmed with the response afterward. To this day people still tell me how much it helped them to see me open up about it. I have also had various other websites contact me about sharing links and other resources that may help anyone dealing with depression. Therefore, I wanted to write a follow up post to update all the people who have showed concern, and share some resources for anyone who could use them.


My last post on this topic was before Christmas last year. Christmas was a really hard for me. I was aggressive, moody and couldn't handle the more simple tasks. The stupidest little things would set me off and ruin my whole day. I would mess up things I have done 100 times. For example, I would drive to work and get off on the wrong exit. I couldn't focus, even on things I normally enjoyed. It was especially hard around Christmas (which I normally love). I couldn't focus enough to buy gifts so I bought everyone lotion or candles. Yet for some reason I sure could shop for myself and ruined my budget repeatedly. I also couldn't handle entertaining and wasn't my normally joyous self at holiday parties. This has continued off and on since then. 

Luckily for me I have a great support system and the resources I need. People often ask if I have seen my Dr. and yes, of course I have. I have been getting treatment since last year and am on medication that helps. I have also checked all of my levels (which are perfect), tried a change of diet, change of schedule, and am trying new stress-relieving activities. I started learning guitar, got a personal trainer and recently changed my hair. These things help to a certain extent but I have good days and bad days. I have been a bit behind on blogging as you can imagine. During good days I mostly want to spend my time doing what makes me happy in that moment. In the end, I am doing okay and I really appreciate everyone's concern.

If you may be depressed and need help, see your doctor and confide in someone close to you. We all need a few good friends to talk to.
You can also check out these resources:

National Alliance on Mental Health

Depression Resources on WebMD 

For Teens

How to help a depressed person

National Institute of Mental Health

For Students

In the end, I want everyone to know that the happy shiny person you see online is not always the entirety of that person. Everyone has problems in one form or another. We have lost a few great people in our community to suicide recently, so please do whatever you can to get the help you need. You are not alone!

XOXO
Dollie 

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2 comments

  1. Hi Dollie, I for one think you're really brave and show a lot of strength by telling everyone about your vulnerable side here. I always try to keep in mind that we all try for perfection, but no one is perfect, except for maybe Jesus, and a lot of people didn't like him. But your site and blog always bring a smile to me and a lot of other readers too, whether it's shows coming up or all the cool stuff I missed at VLV or even your serious side - so for what it's worth I want to say thanks! We're all rooting for our favorite Dollie!

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  2. I admire your courage greatly. It is important to let people know that they/we are not alone. I also understand that the person we portray on-line is a persona, of sorts. It is the person that we want to be and the parts of ourselves that we choose to share. I think it's nice to remind people that things aren't always what they seem on-line. Great job darling!!


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